UPDATE

Ok, I haven't bought the Invacare Eliminator OSR Manual Racing wheelchair yet, but I will let you know when I do. Invacare also has a Top End Excelerator XLT Handcycle which looks fantastic. Does anyone out there have some suggestions for me regarding wheelchair racing and racing wheelchairs? I'd love to hear about your experiences, and I'll appreciate any input that I receive. Thanks!

On another note, I keep having some serious mood swings even though I've been getting out of the house with Judy and Hope more often. Some days I'll wake up ready for the world (and ready to order my racing wheelchair), but other days I don't even want to get out of bed and deal with my paralysis. Judy continues to be the angel in my life, and she is always very patient with me in my depressive states. I really couldn't have found a better woman to be my wife. Sometimes she reminds me of my mother. The way she looks at me and instantly knows my mood makes me feel like a child again. All I know is that if I had to deal with paralysis by myself, the world would be a much colder place. My mother died right after we adopted Hope, and I feel like Judy has taken her place in my life. Being paralyzed has brought me back to my adolescence, and like all kids, I'm simply confused and impatient about the options in my life.

Sometimes I don't really have anything helpful or meaningful to post on this blog, but I still want to share my feelings with all of you. I hope that I am making those like myself realize that they're not alone.