DOUBTS...

Judy and I have been meeting many people (and couples) online who are living with paralysis. Their willingness to share their stories is inspiring, especially when it comes to their relationships with immediate family members. I am now in contact with a man who is living an almost identical existence with his wife and daughter. He said that whenever thoughts of helplessness go through his mind, he is empowered by his responsibility to his daughter and feels that his disability will never get in the way of being strong for her. I sometimes doubt myself in those times.

Now that Hope understands why daddy is in a wheelchair, her behavior has become very cooperative when I tell her to do something. I've noticed that Judy will tell her to do something, only to hear her say "no", but when I tell her to do the same thing, she immediately agrees. I hope she is not beginning to have pity for me because I am in a wheelchair. I don't want her to see me as weaker than her mom in anyway. I guess only time will tell me whether or not she will have that vision of me. For now, I'm just happy to be alive and with them.

I’ll keep learning from others in my situation and see how I can become stronger…